what a month!!!
Last day of the month is here.....well actually its gonna get over too...cos its 11:20 in the night......it feels like the year just began....but hey im not complaining cos i want this college life of mine to get over asap!!!!!!!
man i feel loaded with work all the time....im stressed out and tired most of the time.....cant really experience the wonders of life no more!! its a pity isnt it?? all of so hectic with our routine life ...that we actually forget to take in some moments and cherish them for what they are......and my college prides itself in making our life routine and uneventful.....man guess what?? we finished our exams on the 30th of jan!! and today that is the 31st is a holiday and tomorrow is our second semester.....what a holiday rite???ONE DAY!!!!!!! well atleast im glad they gave this one day ..but as i thought this day was nothing like a holiday..it finished so fast ........
Well atleast some people work hard 5 days a week and there is 2 days of rest....whereas for me its college 6 days a week and well that sunday shouldnt be counted becos that is the day all the teachers load us with homework and the whole day passes just by ..us finishing our work! so its totally like working 7 days a week...and coming to think of it...a week has only 7 days....wow!! great isnt it? (gettin the sarcasm?!)
Really frustrating....so well i wanted to say this small thought which has been on my mind for a long time ....
One day when i was coming home by bus....normally all i do is sleep or just gaze outside....so when i was jus lookin out...i saw this saying written on a wall.....it goes like this...
"You are good if your neighbours say your good!"
This I think is soo true...what abt u?? well cos my neighbours are such a pain in the ---........honestly.....they've got weird habits ....for one ..they've got this stupid loud (and i mean it really loud) horn for their car....and it totally pisses us off.....and they have to honk it everytime exactly when all of us have jus fallen into a deep sleep....we jus get up soo pissed off......and not only that....they play games and break our windows and lamps..and make a hell lot of noise.....man they can get on anyone's nerves.....one boy who is in his 9th grade i guess...drives the car,bike...without a license....and he drives it sooo fast thinking that he is some race or something....really damn irritating people i tell u....they fight yell do nonsense ..alll soooo loudly for the entire neighbourhood to hear i suppose......
But anyways i think this lil article must make u feel good about ur neighbour if they r doin none of these.....cos try living in this place next to people like these and u feel much better definetely......
Well i have to catch my beauty sleep now..otherwise i may doze off during the class hours......Cya!!
Long time no see!
It's hasnt been thaat long but well....2 days rite.......anyways lemme go back to my b'day.....i was learnin chemistry...and my mom was also sleepin next to me as to wake me up when i fall asleep...so she wished me first as it was 12....and then my frend called up and wished and then another frend..and then i had no more interruptions and i learnt for sometime and slept....then was in and out of sleep for sometime and then as usual went to college....well the exam was really bad cos none of the important expected questions came ....and all unwanted stuff were asked....anyways hoping to pass in it.....well in the exam hall i was thinkin...this has got to be one of the worst b'days cos first of all it was chem exam on that day and to top it all off i knew nothin in the paper...and i was so scared!! well then the one good part abt that time was that the lunch in our college on that day was briyani..with cauliflower fry.....ice cream!!! so not bad .......then after i came home ...in about an hr my frend came home and spent time together jus talkin and stuff...then her gift was a cute photo frame..in which there was a pic of both of us!
then also a b'day card.....with her artistic skills at display!!! then few of my other frends too called up!! and not to mention some ppl forgot it!!! and ya...nobody in my college even remembered it was my b'day...i had to tell ppl abt it.....felt really weird...considering we keep talkin abt each others b'day often........
anyways its only been 1 semester!! well then the next day the 26th REPUBLIC DAY for INDIA!!!!!!
then another important event was that ..it was he alumni meet in my school........i relly cant imagine that only a few months back i belonged there as a current student and then i became an alumni.........
anyways before we left to school.....3 of my frends came to my house as a surprise with a b'day cake!!! didnt actually expect it!!was really a good surprise.......then after the cutting and eating part!! we left for school!! when we reached the place our school song was being sung!!! wow never heard that for a long time...though whenever we were singing it...we used to sing it without enthusiasm...now we totally love it!!!!!
so then we collected tombola tickets and took our seats.....well then the game started and all of us didnt have any pens or pencils..so we picked up a couple of sticks and made holes in it!...well i jus needed one number when someone already claimed a full house....so well didnt win any!! and then played a couple of more games and then spoke to some teachers and had snacks and then the 6 of us went around our school remeberin fond memories!! then went to our old classroom ...opened it and sat in r original places and were talkin about everything!! we really missed those days in school.....then anyways it was time so we had to leave...but as we were drivin away from school all of us didnt wanna go home...even though we had our exam the next day! so went to a nearby hangout place called Gangotree..had a dahi(meanin curd) papadi chat...and 4 ice creams......then after that it was really gettin late.....so all of us went back home!!!!then after that the fear of next day's exam started to sink in and so i studied few things but then felt really sleepy!!but still that didnt keep me from watchin the entire movie of "THE VILLAGE" .........after that i learnt and slept and got up and learnt some more.....and then went to coll....the exam was not that bad...quite oK! anyways i will write more later...cos in 5 more mins in HBO the movie spider-man 2 is gonna start.....cant miss it cos i havent seen it as yet!!
anyways byee!!
Last day of 17!!
wondering what the title is?? well it jus signifies that this is the last time im writing the blog when im 17 yrs old....
yup cos tomorrow is my b'day!!! and to top all that its my chemistry tomorrow....really bugging...i dont like that subject at all in the first place.....but hoping to do well......i did maths very badly and not sure of passing.....i really really felt hopeless yesterday and it put my mood off for studying..........plz plz pray i shud pass.....cos im jus scrapin thru......i was so upset..crying.....*sob sob* .......well write tomorrow!! see ya!
Coming up.....
Yesterday is the 1st day i missed out on writing my blog!!Anyways as for the exam i had..it was english and i started studying for it only from 5 am in the mornin of the day i had the exam......really risky isnt it??? but in my opinion english is a subject that is timely..u know we can write things that strike us at that moment and cannot be pre planned for it....well as for the grammer part i learnt the notes i had and other than that nothing more.......finally the paper was quite ok! and didnt mess up much!!
But as concerned about today im really freaking out about tomorrow's exam!!!!!!! man im really getting shit scared....cos its MATH ....and well i dunno what the hell to do ....im learning and learning math all my life as far as im concerned but nothing stays inside the head...and everything gets so confusing in the end........man whoever invented all the stuff in math !! sheeeshh jobless people.......if they discovered something important cudnt they keep it to themselves??? why making all of us suffer........
well not that im bad at it...or i dont like it....but the point abt math is that i like it only if im able to solve it.....if it doesnt come i get really irritated abt the whole thing...........
im really really scared,though im learnin.....
well im praying as much as im studyin......hope everything turns out well!!
and yah! not to forget....yesterday night i went to a hotel named GRT Grand days....with 2 of my cousins....well the food wasnt the money's worth but it was alrite.......
anyways write later......bye bye!!
Phew!!
well what can i say?? i know ur expecting to read something nice now...but hey what to do..my exam was just OK!
hmm to start off lemme explain about the paper pattern....its normally for 100 marks and the part A consists of 10 questions (2 marks for each) and these questions are all compulsory without any choice....(thats bad isnt it???)
then there is Part B which has a total of 5 questions each for 16 marks.......the 1st question in this part is compulsory and all other questions are of the type "either or" .....
the first drawback was that compulsory question....it came from a lesson that i dont like very much cos i didnt study it too well.....but still i had confidence that i could atleast write sumthin init.......then the next 16 mk questions were all fine...that is till i started writing them.,.......so i started answering 'em and to my astonishment i had taken one hour for answering 2 questions!!! and our entire examination time is for 3 hours......so i panicked and wrote the others pretty quickly......i was doing alrite....when i reached the last question...well as i read it ..i was like yah gr8 this is an easy one i can finish it fast....but heres where the trouble began...i totally got stuck in the middle of the derivation and thats it...and my calm self was lost....i got so scared and really didnt know what else to do.....but then at that moment the hall invigilator announced we had only 15 mins left and i still had part A to finish......so i started doing that.....and my mind was all rushy !!! and i couldnt think of the answers....they gave problems to top it all off and not simple ones but ones that i have no clue as to what to do.............man so i got really irritated and well since presentation is an important factor i underlined all my answers and well by this time those 15 mins were over and i handed out my paper................*sigh* well atleast i was glad one exam was over and i need not learn that yucky stuff anymore!!!!!
anyways tomorrow is English and normally i do well in it....but still u can never be too sure of anything right....so still keeping my fingers crossed....*ouch its hurting* haha.......anyways will "blog" later!!!
bye!!!
Nerves!!!
OH MY GOD!!! now its really sinking in that my exam is tomorrow!!!!! gosh im not confident of anything ..and havent finished any lesson completely.......dunnno what the hell im gonna do......
You know...during days like these i really curse myself for not taking studies seriously before and wasting a lot time enjoying myself in these study hols...but now that the exam is not even 24hrs away...im getting really really scared!!!!
There is just soo much to remember and im wondering if i could remember everything im gonna learn.....
hoping very much that the paper should be answerable and i should scrape a 80% and above......(keeping my fingers crossed ..)
well most of the time on days like today i keep making resolutions that from next time onwards i will study my daily lessons.....well ya now it seems alrite that im making it...but again in a few months time i will find myself in a situation jus like now.....man i dont know what to do with myself...........im gonna try as hard that i dont fall asleep today ...and study really well.......
hmm..i cant bring myself to write anything more.....so i will write tomorrow after im done with my exam....
hope it goes well.....plzz pray man!!!!! (thats all there left to do......)
Wednesday!
Hmm ok! its very close now....(im talkin about my exams).....well anyways finally went to college today and got my hall ticket! i was scared yesterday whether i would be able to get up early..but the mosquitoes saved me from that worry....cos man there were sooo many of them...i totally didnt sleep....i would have maximum slept only for 2 hours......i became a mighty warrior and killed nearly 30-40 mosquitoes....but still they kept on coming...god knows from where.....and then i finally gave up and started studying ...and then got ready and went to my bus stop! and well the bus was a lil late....and in my bus met my bus mate and well the climate was awesome today in the morning! ....it was all foggy and misty!! and only the vehicle in front of us was visible ........well thinking about it ..its a risky thing considering driving on the road....but still kinda different seeing the city like that!!and to top it off....all the shutters in the bus were closed except ours......i just love the morning breeze!! but after sometime it got too cold for my friend so we had to close ours too....
Then reached college and finally after some chit chatting with friends got our hall tickets and surprisingly we heard that they issued buses for us....and we were astonished cause for about 30 students we didnt think they would issue buses....but then it was only 2 buses and anyways got down nearest to my house and well slept really well ..compensating for the night before.....then im having a very bad headache!!! hoping it would go away soon....
Well ok then let me start studying something......i should become a little more serious atleast today cos my semester exam is only a day away!!!!
Bye!!
PS: Anjali, never really thought that u were really gonna read my blog everyday.....but thanks a lot for doing so!!
Tuesday!
OK! finally i've come to the day where i planned on really studying seriously!! well it kinda started off fine.....thought i kept my alarm for 7 am i ended up getting up only at 8:30....anyways then i had breakfast which was "dosa" ...i watched the golden globe awards till 9:30 and then came to my room and started learning......with all determination the process of learning was going on...when my mom came in to the room.....after a few mins chat she left...then a call came ....hoping it shudnt be any of my frends so that i dont waste more time i picked i up..lucikly it wasnt....then i learnt an important answer and was about to write it and check whether i remeber ..when another call came ......and this time it was my friend......well though my brain was saying to hang up my heart said no! and talk for a few mins so that i do not hurt my friend's feelings cause after she called up to talk to ME rite?!?!! so then we spoke for about sometime and then hung up .....after that i wanted to know what my college was planning about our hall tickets!! so i called my bus mate and as i hoped she had the answer to my question! they had asked up to come tomorrow and collect it!! man what a waste of time .....cause we will have to catch the college bus at6:30 in the morn which has begun a very hard task for me for the fact that ...the last 25 days ive been getting up at 8 or 9 in the morn...dunno how im gonna do it tomorrow!
Well then with great effort i finished one lesson and as it happened i dozed off around 3 in the afternoon...and well ha! parents..thinkin that i studied too much they thought i could take this rest by sleeping for a while! and then i got up by 5 and well started studying a little when my mom came to my room and switched on the computer...then i knew what was she gonna do...nothing but play those yahoo!downloadable games which has already been downloaded and after their free trial 60 mins has expired we still play their 5 mins extended trial!!
This is fun cause its like this is the activity for that mom-daughter time together!! cause we play some games together and its great fun!! well not to boast or anything...but normally i end up finishing levels and tasks a lil quicker than my mom and shes always like ...well whatever......but then i tell her that the only difference between both of us while playing games is...that she plays for time pass and fun whereas i play to finish it ..so that i have some sense of achievement!
Games is a really wonderful thing with some meaning to me..coming to think of it......cos....normally when my sister and myself come online we play cool games together .....then as i already mention my mom and myself have fun playing these 5 minute games!! and then with my dad...it was always fun playing anything with him....before when all of us had the time we played UNO nearly every afternoon after lunch.....but then times have become busier .....wish i could have the same fun i used to have before!!!!
Well guess now i think its time for me to go back to my books!
See ya!!!
Monday
You know....thinking up these titles for the blogs itself seems a lil tough.....cos im trying to get the perfect one for whatever im gonna type...but seriously it doesnt strike when i want it to.....well anyways before i forget.....i want to thank Anjali for reading my blog and even leaving comments......i really appreciate it..!!Thanks again!!
And the countdown has really begun for my exams now...tomorrow i have to start serioulsy for my first exam....which is physics......man wat a subject right.....well last year in my 12th grade i found it pretty interesting...partly the credit goes to my sir who taught it so well ....and we learnt that one subject nearly everyday...in the beginning it was mostly cause we feared him ...and this fear made us study everyday..but then it turned interesting!!
But this year at college our new sir was fun in the beginning..but his real self was potrayed later on....in his classes if a test is announced ..there is no post ponding it or anything.....and he remembers the dates for which he announced the test too....and always always he turns a deaf ear to our pleas and excuses when we tell him we havent prepared for the test at all......and recently a day before our college closed for our study hols he held a test for which most of us hadnt touched our books hoping he would cancel this 1....but we were soo mistaken...he came in and gave the questions right away....and me...i jus glanced thru that lesson during my bus journey to college in the morning....so i jus remembered some stuff and the question was about fibre optic communication and in my paper...it was not "fibre optic communication" but "my own communication"...haha well seriously if he had read my paper he would have been so frustrated....cause there was nothing but rubbish in it!!ha..well who really cares rite?!?!
well even after writing so much i really dont know wat title to give for this blog......this may seem lame but i cant think of anything else..thinkin that...since the countdown has begun for my exams ..i can name the titles as each day of the wk till my exam starts rite....welll thats all that came to my mind.........
BYE!
*Thinking..*
Well its 9 pm here and the whole day has been wasted away....i meant that since these r my study holidays...im suppossed to be studying and throughtout this day i havent done anything.....hmm it would have been a lot easier actually if i had my sister around.....cause we do this nice thing while we study..that is...we alot a bit of our portions that we have to study ..and we alot some time within which we should finish it.....so it becomes like some game between us and in the rush to win we studied really hard and fast!! and guess what?? i used to win most of the time....well that would have been probably because my sister was in a higher standard and guess that compared to my syllabus hers was a lot tougher...and thats why she took a lil more time always to finish .....but now i have to study alone which is kinda irritating ...and i dont posses a very strong will power to keep studying continuosly...and i start doing other things....wish i had someone next to me to keep me focussed...but well anyways i have to keep myself going on.....well at hard times...i follow my sister's advise...which she told me a couple of yrs back...
She told me that we have to have that driving force within us...and when we think we r losing our focus..we have to think about our parents...and how hard they strive to make us study in a good school/college......and we should remember their sacrifices for us...and to make them happy all we have to do is study well.....
and her policy is that if we strive hard today ...we can be happy always!!!!
and another thing that keeps ringing in my mind ..(though i dont like the sound of it) is that whenever we have the urge to sleep when we are studying....the thought that....if we sleep today we will never sleep for the rest of our life...and if we dont sleep today we can sleep happily for the rest of our life!!!!!
howzatt!!! well its damn true and good if we follow it!! but many times...when i remind my friends about this thought...all i get back is a big ----SHUT UP!!!!!!!!...........
The Beginning.....
Hello everyone!
Well not really sure on how to start things....but anyways this is a place where we can write what thoughts come to our mind rite....and guess should not be bothered about the formalities as if writing an essay or something in our english term papers!! huh......so lets see.....I'm doing my first year in Computer science and engineering !well in any case the thought that this course is easy passes thru ur mind...u are mistaken....cause thats what i thought and took up this course but as it seems Nothing in life is easy ......hmm as i've begun about my college life ..i think i rather get on with the story of how it all began!!
When i finished my board exams (12th grade!) and entrance exams i was very happy looking forward for a looong holiday!! but alas! it was the time for me to confirm what i was going to study and where? so my dad ..a great involver! took me to a few colleges and we were enquiring about the fee structure....i didnt like any college in particular but had an open mind about things.....and so it happened...the day i got my results.....hmm for a start not bad in my board exam results...i secured 89% ....but as for my entrance exam results i totally flopped!! my Dad was really not happy about it...and i sure didnt blame him for being so....i was very sad...didnt have anybody to confide my feelings to....lost in misery not knowing what is going to happen next!
But as time moved on...my dad had to come in peace with himself to start accepting those marks cause after all I am his daughter!! and well my future was in his hands!! and so anyways...we finally chose a college and paid the money and secured my place in that college!! well while the deciding of the college was going on...my best friend and myself decided it would be great for us to go to the same college....so in that event both of our dads spoke on deciding what to do...and guess what ..we were excited and happy when all of a sudden she was admitted to another college .....this is was so sudden cause till the day before this happened we were sure we were gonna be together.....but as fate would have it ..it changed everything.....well at first i was sooooo angry with her.....cause it was -she who put that idea in my head in the 1st place and she made my hopes go high and then it alll came crashing down.....i was really angry that i actually made up my mind not to talk to her again....
but i knew she was going thru the same misery as i was but still nothing made it OK for me to think that i had to pity her but i put up my "cold" attitude towards her...cos in my mind it was all HER fault!! i knew i had to comfort her and u know the stuff that normally a friend shud do .....but i couldnt make myself to do it....deep down i knew it wasnt entirely her fault and she did nothing intentionally......but ...hey..watever!!
Then actually i dont remember when i started talking to her properly......but its good that i did.....cause both of us had gone through the same phase....a lot of tears those days.....anger....frustration......couldnt wait to get over with it all........then any how life went on.....
College started and my first semester exams are precisely 5 days away!! wat a time to start blogging rite??
Anyways never too late to do anything!!
Well i guess this first blog isnt thaaat boring....if it is for u then hey! u r saying that i am boring.....which is so not true!! anyways guess i shall continue later.!
till then bye!!
