Silence is Golden
hello !!!! well i know its been a long time since i wrote...but the truth is that theres an unfinished post saved as draft and i didnt find the rite mood and time to continue with it......anyways jus gonna have to post it later i guess.!!
so coming to what i was gonna write now was...abt today......well though it bein a saturday as usual i went to college......really extra bugging cos i had a math test .......anyways the day started off pretty welll cos i did study well and though i always lack confidence ..i was thinkin to myself that i shud jus remeber everything!!! anyways then when we were having breakfast ......my friend sitting next to me suddenly told that her chest hurts (due to eating so quickly like we always do) and immediately i told her that "hey ur having a heart attack" and she pretended to die!! and then both of us started laughing and we started making things up! i told her that i wont be able to write the test cos i will be sad that my frend died....and then she told that jus after the test she will b alive again and then r lives can go abt normal!!! .....well it doesnt sound soo funny now that i m typing it!! but believe me......it was funny and more funnier in tamil....in which we were actually talkin!!! ....and hearin this another frend told " ok fine very nice....shall we make a movie out of this story ??!?!? and we made up random names and i just cudnt stop laughing!!!!! and now actually i dont remember what those were....anyways .....
then well my test didnt go abt so well as i expected.......and after that i dunno what got into me...but i was really quiet the whole day!! ive had many days like these before......and during these kinda days i take all the time in my head alone to reflect on many things.......and though i shudnt be reflecting during class....but hey it happens rite!!
so i came to the topic abt why my sister and myself dont get along when we meet once in a yr.....seriouly it happens all the time.....its always like this .......the first few days all we do is fight even though it must have been a yr since we wud have seen each other.....
so coming to the point i figured it kinda!! .......well u know my sister left for studies abroad when i was in the 8th grade .....so first reason i thought of was.......the time that i was actually growing up in my life........my sister was not there next to me to see me change thru the months......she never knew what happened in my day to day life ....which she actually wanted to understand in that lil duration she stayed here for her hols,,,,that was one thing i feel irritating cos ....i jus cant jump into the story in which ive transformed...its all supposed to b understood and seen.......so i nvr shared anything with her ..like the silly stuff i do everyday or wht happened in school.....how i studied.......what i felt abt the ppl around me!and many stuff like that.........it was like this big barrier between us which had increased soo much and it can nvr be decreased cos its still increasing.........
well another thing that struck me was......as far as i was concerned i remembered my old sister....who also like i explained in the above para....has obviously grown and i didnt know what she had become.......co si nvr knew anything abt her so it felt like something........like......she was jus connected to me as my sister but inside it felt like she was another person ...more like a stranger.........cos she also had transformed and i didnt understand it and i cant adapt myslef to that new person suddenly!! ......and moreover i didnt like anything abt her that she had transformed into.....cos wen she comes back from US...shes all new and totally different...for example ..her dressing....which as far i knew and liked was the fact that she was all indianish in the family and me being the tom boy .!! well that 1 thing changed and her the way she talks is also funny to me many times......and her standards and values have changed......and maybe it has changed for the best but i nvr remeber my old sis being like dat!! and another thing that i loved was that she was nice and chubby.....thought she considered herself as "fat" .....i didnt think so....but as sisters normally do i always tease her abt that .....but now she has totally slimmed down....which i dunno why i relly dont like 1 bit at all............
well really cant express what i feel inside since its complicated...and my sis always keeps saying things like ......i have come here for u but u dont seem to talk to me at all.....the point that she nvr understood was...in my silence i was studyin how she has changed and tried not to dislike her for her new self!! .....and well im a person who doesnt like to express my feelings with others.......like u know wen my sis tells i love u ..over the fone...i'll be like ..yea me 2.....but if i had to say it first ..i nvr will cos these things like " i miss u",,,,,"i love ya" ......and stuff ..can nvr be gotten from me so easily as i feel very un easy !! .............well and i know this post is really long now..but i jus wanna finsih with this last thought........i have always had my sister to "myself" .....i really dont like sharing her........i remember once when i was in the 6th grade ...for a competition my sis thought us the dance steps.....and most of my classmates became "fans of her greatness" .......i really didnt like those girls and it was like "she is my sister and only i get to call her akka" and nobody else shud say it!! .........and wen she comes here in her hols i know she likes her frends and wanna spend time wid em too....but i really dont like it when she spends most of the day at some frends place and then goes out as a gang for loong!! ......i try to understand but then its gets really irritaing .........so by the time shes home im all irritated wid her and so i dont like talkin to her thaat much and then again she mistakes it .....and says things like ..."i dunno why i bother to c u and get stuff for u ..when ur like this to me" and that hurts me more and then it turns out to be a big fight............and well anyways it all gets resolved later ............well i think i shud wind up now....otherwise i may itself get bored reading this.....
well c ya! hoping to write something more cheerful next time!!!
Yay!!!
The cause of happiness today is cos i did my physics practicals well!!! really unbelievable cos physics is one of the toughest and the starting day itself we had this big thing! ....well anyways i got one of the tough experiments..which also takes a long time to finish! ....its known as LEE'S DISC......
the moment i saw that i got that expt i got really tensed.....but i tried so hard to keep myself calm and kinda scraped thru it!!
but still tomorrow i have chemistry on its way.....hope i do well in dat too.....in phy we excaped from viva questions....but chem surely they asking......ooh i hope i dont forget everything........well do pray for all of us doin exams.........and in case i dont have time to write tomrrow ....
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!
Work work work......*never ending*
Hey ppl!!......well as predicted college is sooo bugging!! cant bear these daily routines...its a total mechanical life....and next week starting from monday i have my University Practicals.....gosh!! continously for 4 days...and soo scared about it!........dunno hows its gonna be..........shud be bttr than my theory papers!!!
Well then...now in second semester......we have a new sir for Data Structures ...and hes really "new"...i mean he was just appointed to the coll itself and the first class hes handling is ours......he is such an irritating specimen.....i mean he really blabbers and his concepts are not clear ..and to top all that hes mostly scared and not confident of anything he says! ...i mean ...we can see that he knows this "computer software" stuff....but he hey hes the kind who can learn all those things but find it hard to express....so a person who cant do that...why the hell he has to teach??
and he keeps calling the girls in the class as "madam" ....kinda sarcastic u know...dunno how hes meaning it! .....and the stupidest thing is that ..while taking attendance he calls the girls according to their roll numbers and when the guys name starts..he calls out their names!!!! man what the hell?!? dont understand his logic at all........
and he takes refugee in the boys corner.....kinda hoping that they will support him kinda! ...and he told us itself that he knows that we girls dont like his teaching!!! and today he yelled at us in the lab...saying that girls are makin more noise than boys...well hello!!!!! of course boys make less noise compared to the girls cos in my class there are 32 girls and 13 boys...so obviously their sounds r not heard...but from the place i was sittin in it was heard so clearly and they were making a lot of noise considering they were only 13 in number!!! .....
cant seem to get rid of him...and this is supposed to be an important subject in our course and we've got a stupid person to teach it!!!! dont understand this crap!!!!!.....and oh ya forgot to mention that hes r class incharge too....can u believe it??? ...and the thing that iritated us more was that it seems hes been recruited for the IT department but hes incharge and taking class for US......Computer science dept.!!! .............
Anyways the pile of homework is jus gettin huge everyday!! ......phew! and tomorrow ..though its a saturday.....it s a full working day for us......*boo hoo*
so shud get started with my stuff........c ya!!!
One more B'day!!
Tomorrow is the day dedicated to the birth of my dear cousin brother!! well according to relationships hes not my brother but still both of are of were born in the same year....and as u must have read b4 it was my b'day on jan 25th...so we both r jus a week apart........
Well what say i tell a little about him?....ok here goes!! His name is Deepak ...but we nvr call him that way...its another secret pet name...which i dont think he will like it if i mention online........so lemme keep that as a secret!
he lives in Singapore and studying some level (dont really understand their school technique there)...anyways hes a real brainy and wanted to be a scientist ....guess now its changed a bit!
Then well normally the four of us hang out most of the time...ie.him,his lil bro,my elder sis and myself.....
but my sis was the popular one in the gang....and i was the real mean and naughty one! but later on..it was ok...and i have had loads of fun with him.....once when he came to india..he was here only for a day....so mostly that whole day we both were just talkin talkin and nothin else...catchin up on each other's lives.......
And recently last July i went to s'pore and that time the 3 of us(excluding my sis) had real loads of fun!
u know...myslef and his younger bro make the world's most silliest jokes...but damn funny .....and with that singaporean accent of sayin "LAH!"....really cool man!!!! And one thing was really really funny....that is....remember that song fron the animated movie MADAGASCAR! ....."i like to move it move it....she like to move it move it........"...my bro sings that really cutely...in a stupid way.....u have to hear it to laugh!!! but trust me...u will if u do.......
So anyways heres a big
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!! to him!!!! (and oh yeah! hes turning 18!).........
Weekends here!!!
Friday rules!! doesnt it?!?! well for me its only this friday that rules.....cos this is the one and only holiday for a saturday that we might get in this semester.....well should enjoy it while its happening!
So not such a gr8 day today...cos i became sick and had a bad cold!! and i wud have sneezed atleast nearly 30 times yesterday!!! ....i had a very free flowin nose....throat pain...and tiredness as usual......and yesterday when i was all in the feelin of pukin and stuff...my mom made "Kaimaa" ..i dont know how to explain it in english...but its a kinda.....whatever!!...will let u know when i find out exactly what is it....anyways i really cudnt enjoy it yesterday but still ate a gr8 deal of it.....im sure my sis is gonna be jealous ! but hey wat can i say shes such a gr8 cook!! and her chicken dishes rock!! .....Way to go sissy!! ......
Actually i wanted to write in somethin that was on my mind yesterday and cudnt find the time and energy to write.....so now is the oppurtunity!......its about this girl in my batch but in the ECE(Electronics Communication Engineering) department.....guess what she got married yesterday!!......oh gosh...many of us cudnt believe it...and for some it felt weird......well honestly! ..shes only 18 and an average student......and obviously educated.......
I was like whaaa........well seems like it was her choice and by the way that guy she married was her relative too...and hes like 25 yrs old.....and is working in Australia or some place abroad......whats the point man?!?
he's gonna go back to his place and shes gonna come back to college......how can some1 have the same attitude towards studies after that?!? well she shud..cos shes got no choice rite......but i really thought this was uncalled for and totally stupid! ........dunno what more to say...dumbfounded....
Guess i'll wrap up with this lil thought on ur minds.........c ya!
Another era...
Well not so much of an era...but definetely another semester.......it all began today...man boring naa.....
anyways so dragging myself in the mornin i went to coll!! then came to know that most of my teachers havent changed and only 2 new teachers for us...that is one for Data Structures and another is for Engineering mechanics(E MECH)...and they scared us by telling that this sem is gonna be really short.....and its like jus 2 mths....can u imagine ...we r suppossed to have one sem of 6mths but its like 2 mths...r we geniuses or what to finish everything so soon?? we r freshers rite...it takes time blending with these subjects....and they also told us this sem math and that E mech is really really tough...and its all so scary.......and to top it all off...the timetable is also hectic and ppl r tellin us it wont be surprising if we have coll on sunday too...what the hell man?!?! but im sure they wont have it...but really buggin to think that they even consider it!! idiots!!
and well my room's a mess....and shud clean that too....then shud learn maths now! and even watch American Idol which is startin in abt 20 mins.....
so well i better get on with it.....write later....(and my mom has also come prying on my blog !!!)
c ya later!
